A Pinch and a Punch

 It was April Fools Day, 2017. I was thinking of some tricks to play on my family, when I began thinking of other 'tricks' - those that I had been playing on myself for many years. My old and toxic beliefs had tricked me so that I was not living from my heart, but from fear and darkness.

 

A pinch

and a

punch,

The first

of the

month!

 

Tricked you!

 

Wow - you knew?

How?

When did you realise?

Why didn't you say

something?

 

I followed you,

and I

trusted you,

but,

you tricked me!

 

I believed

what you

told me.

I listened.

 

You told me

I was useless, that I

will never be

enough.

 

You showed me

that I am

unlovable

and worthless.

 

I trusted you.

I believed you.

How,

Why,

did you trick me?

 

You are my inner,

my strength.

You are my

past

and my

future.

 

Why did you

deceive me?

 

You are

my darkness,

You lead

my charge.

 

What!

I don't have

to listen to you?

Then who?

 

Who?

 

What?

My heart?

No, that is

pure

deception!

 

Really?

My heart?

What?

I can trust

my heart?

 

No?

I can listen to

my heart?

What?

I can believe

my heart?

 

But,

my heart

says

I love you!

 

What?

Did I hear

you correctly?

I am worthy

of love?

 

No,

that is

deception!

I cannot believe it!

 

How can it

be true?

That I am enough?

 

But, I

believed you

since before

I can

remember

anything else.

 

What?

There is another

way to think?

I can

walk another

path?

 

How? For my path is

well trodden.

My mind

set in its ways.

 

What?

Look up

and see

my beauty?

 

How?

See the

trustworthy

as the

deceiver.

 

Can it be true?

It must be

true!

I must be enough!

 

Really?

I can walk

with my

head

high?

 

I can!

Believe!

I am worthy!

I am enough!

I am love!

 

Oh!

What?

You love

me too?

I never knew.

Let's hug!

 

Lisa Cohen - In2Balance Holistic Kinesiology 2017